I'm gonna try to write everyday..
I know thats stupid, and probably impossible.
But who's to say i cant.

I mean- everynight i have hours and hours after the kids go to bed, so maybe this will be good for me. Maybe i can express myself. Relieve tension. relieve me by doing this.

I was able to accomplish some things today. I cleaned my kitchen for the first time in over a week. I dont even remember the last time i cooked for my family. Ive just been ordering in.
I can now see the livingroom floor too.. And now you can tell it needs vacuuming horribly.

i have clean dishes. but the makeup that kyler got all over the couch has stained the covers, and i washed them 3 times, but it wont come out.

So.. I think i will need to buy the couch covers Maybe that will help when the kids spill stuff.
I made a sale today.. the first one in forever.. it accumulated to a total of $12.00 HAHA..
Man i really suck at this boutique thing.

and whats awful is its the only thing i want to do in life right now.
But its not happening. I want a shop. I want a shop full of homemade items that I did.
i want to design.
Maybe its not for me. Maybe its a sign that i should go back to school.
I know nothing about business, and i know nothing about sewing, yet everytime i make something it turns out great. So which is it?
Im not making sales- Go back to school
Im a great designer- start the business.

Its so friggin aggrivating. I want to do this soo bad. I mean- Everyone loves my stuff, but I dont know how to get my name out there..
And what happens when i do get orders. I can barely run my house as it is.. What if i get too many orders.

Why am i having such a hard time dealing with this..
Maybe it has something to do with this Gallo Family Moscato I bought today.. Its delish.
whatev..
Im goin to bed!