Need more time-

Feel like i spend no time with kyler bug...

i feel like a horrible parent.. But the craft show is coming up and im not ready, and really i guess i should think of this as a full time job.. Being crafty and all= but what about my kid, shouldnt she have full time attention? Shes ten months old for gods sake.

what about her? and when the new baby comes? what about her? I cannot just push her over to the side. i cannot get her out of the way becuz mommys too tired to play with you- its not her fault..
Its mine.
and no offense to new baby, but if i would have been able to have my way- the new baby would have a set of adoptive parents already.

We were in no position to even think about keeping another baby- its bad enough we didnt have enough money to feed ourselves, and got our electricity turned off, and evicted out of our apartment.. Which wouldnt have happened, had i not let an old friend talk me into moving and splitting the rent, then having her bail. and leave me to pay all the bills on a more expensive place.

no- none of it would have happened.. and he would still be here, kyler would know her dad...

and i would have more time in the day-

Another Day

I dont think i got a single thing accomplished today-
Kyler had a dr appt.. which we were an hour late for thinking it was at 11./. it was at 10...

Went to a friends.. talked- left smelling like smoke and wishing they didnt smoke..
Went to hobby Lobby- got the lady to cut me some fabric for a cart cover.. couldnt find my debit card.. searched the car- searched the diaper bag, checked my front pockets.. no card

went to walmart- grabbed some wraps for lunch,

shared wraps with kyler. got a few groceries..
came home..

found the card in my (back) pocket. put kyler down for a nap- 2 hours late. started a diaper clutch that i couldnt finish because kyler was asleep... in the room with the sewing machine. said id do it later.

never did.

fixed dinner. made potato patties.. added the olive oil in the potatoes.. the olive oil was supposed to go in the pan..
potatoes were gross.. threw them out- made mashed potatoes.. ate them with the pork and beef tip wine reduction. it needed salt.

tried to get kyler to poo in the potty... she refused. she sat in my lap- and pooed on me.
gave kyler a bath-

watched tv- played with kyler.
put kyler in her jammies.

put her to bed. now- watching golden girls and realizing i wasted this day.

10 more weeks till the boy is here- (sarcastic) yay!